I’m not referring to my previous 2 posts or the one that I’m going to post after this one. I’m talking about something else that I’m writing that I will probably never post anywhere. I wanted to address cries of “omg I want improve my writing but I have nothing to write about” OR “I’m going to improve my writing this year and write one lang-8 entry a week/day/month.” I sneer at all the people who write something along these lines on the internet. 90% of these people will most likely write 0 lang-8 entries after that or 1. I’m dead serious. The “I have nothing to write about” is clearly a first world problem.
Recently I’ve been writing and I will not reveal what the topic was but it’s unpleasant. It’s relevant to me and it is an issue in my life so I have more than enough motivation to write about it. Before I never thought to write it down because I want forget it and not dwell on it and “waste my time” on it since there’s other stuff I’d rather be doing. For some reason this time around I feel like writing about it and keeping track of facts or at least my accounts (there’s always bias). It’s not completely enjoyable but I was able to write a lot and I have a lot to write on it and add to what I wrote later on. My logic is that I don’t want to trouble my brain to remember all these memories and I have a fear that I’ll forget these memories in the future. I think I should write it down so that I have no worries of forgetting memories. some memories are fleeting so that memory won’t play in my head for a long time but then I still remember years later. There isn’t much reason or trigger for me to remember most of “these” memories so it’s only natural I’ll hopefully eventually forget them. Also putting all the memories down will hopefully allow me to organize them chronologically, make connections, recognize patterns so that I can come to a clean-cut decision/reflection. I’ve been vacillating on how I feel about it or what the actual issue is or if one even exists.
Going back to those issues I don’t see the point of forcing yourself to write whether it’s writing every week or making yourself write about some topic. I’m only “motivated” to write about what I wrote about because it’s relevant to my life. The reason is it’s not going to continue because you’re not really interested. It’s akin to what I do for comprehension and learning grammar which is watching entertaining, hilarious media or read books by wonderful and talented authors (btw some of the critically acclaimed Japanese writers do suck and aren’t compatible with me. REMEMBER to be picky). because it’s enjoyable. there’s no” I have to watch it for 30 minutes otherwise I’ll forget my Japanese grammar.” I’m just enjoying watching whtaever and being proactive while watching by looking up stuff (it doesn’t have to be everything). I do it because i find it fascinating and entertained by it. First and foremost reason for doing something in Japanese is that it’s FUN, the second reason is “it’s in Japanese so it’ll help me learn it or maintain it.” Don’t get the order backwards. there’s way too much media to be settling and wasting your time and subjecting yourself to misery.
hmm so enjoyable writing. so for the example I wrote isn’t enjoyable completely. It gives me catharsis so I am able to continue writing. It’s relevant to me so I hold interest. Please don’t waste your time practice writing about some article no one reads or remembers for improving on your Japanese. focus on why you want to improve your writing skills. what are you going to do especially on a daily basis. I’m not the type of person who is into diaries. An entry a a day, a week is too much commitment. however if you’re one of those people who enjoys the activity of writing diaries greatly and want to do it in the your target language then it might work out. however for me that will never work so i don’t even try and my life is so boring anyway . I love hearing about other people’s lives especially people who are well-accomplished, famous, hard-working, good-looking, or all of the above. If you evaluate your situation and realize there isn’t really a need/practical reason in your life for writing (you like doing other stuff more or you were never into it or you can’t come up with any topic that interests you or is relevant to you to the point of writing about it or if you’re level is too low) then accept it and focus on understanding the language especially if you don’t even understand daily conversational language. honestly i think it’s pointless writing if you don’t even understand conversation level Japanese/your target language. Conversational Japanese is pretty easy and seems simple but watching it and speaking it are 2 different things. there’s a lot of tools in your toolbox from mastering comprehension of daily conversation Japanese. it takes practice to really know how to use your tools and when to use each of them. I honestly will admit that I understand Japanese really well like usually 95% -100% or something like that depending on the audio quality, the people who are talking (some people don’t talk clearly. it’s not my fault, it’s their fault) but I dont’ think have a good command of Japanese with speaking or writing (speaking> writing though). I know I can definitely get across the main point in Japanese even if it’s not completely correct I know the person will understand what I’m trying to say. i don’t really have a strong desire to work on it. I writ elang-8 entries sporadically because randomly I really want to write about something and I felt like writing about it in Japanese and english. then when i get to writing it it’s frustrating and i can’t remember words or I’m trapped by grammar (I know what I want to express but grammatically i have to wrestle and ponder about certain things and I don’t want to compromise by simplifying how I want to express it or summarizing the content). I have high standards on how satisfactorily I want to express myself. Needlessly to say I don’t post much and i just don’t have a lot of topics I want to write about. sometime I do but I don’t want to share it with people so I definitely won’t post it on lang-8. I don’t say bullshit I’M GOING TO WORK ON Japanese WRITING/SPEAKING SKILLS now because there is no need for me and I’ve had enough experience to predict the future regarding that.